1 Month Post Partum or 4 months pregnant?

Just a few days after giving birth, some relatives and friends visited me and asked “Bakit ang laki pa rin ng tyan mo?!” (Why is your tummy still so big?!). I know they don’t mean anything bad but people can be so insentive, and all those magazines and photos of ‘celebrities and models’ that seems to look so perfect right after giving birth doesn’t help either. I mean, hello I just gave birth, i was cut open and a human being came out of me!

It was really difficult to post this photo, to show what the world sees as ‘flaws’, but well this is the real deal. My body housed 2 beautiful baby boys and it took 9 months each time to grow them in my belly and I have accepted the fact that it will take some time for my body to go back to the way it was (if it does go back) And if it doesn’t, that’s okay too.

Don’t get me wrong I’m happy for those moms who have flat tummies just a few days after giving birth, but we’re all different, our bodies are all different and that’s okay and I want other mamas out there who are like me, who look at themselves in the mirror and feel sad because of what they see. I want you to know that you are not alone…

So to all the mama’s out there who’s exhausted, who’s not had a proper shower, whose breasts are super sore, those who can’t recognize their own bodies because of the stretchmarks and the chloasma or the dark patches all over their bodies, to those who still look pregnant after a month or even months after giving birth- cheers to us! We are are all beautiful and unbelievably strong and God has given us such a wonderful gift that’s worth all these hardships and body changes… So cheer up Mama You really are amazing!

To my Tobias- happy 1 month baby ko, you and kuya Noah are worth every stretchmarks, body changes, every pain, every sleepless night and wouldn’t trade you for anything…

Thank You Jesus for the strength You provide, physically and emotionally, thank You for Your love that gives confidence to this mama and every mama reading this. Thank You Jesus!

Beautiful in His eyes

George 😍

“I pray that you will always know that you are beautiful because you are God’s wonderful creation, that you are loved and your family and your ninongs and ninangs will always be here for you.”

This photo was taken during ‘George’s‘ (Krystal Dannela’s) 1st birthday and dedication and I remember telling the photographer to make sure I don’t look fat in the photo 🙊 (He said he wasn’t a magician, but I think he did a pretty good job)

You see, i have been feeling really ugly recently. At 31 weeks I have already gained almost 30lbs, I’ve gotten pretty big in a lot of areas- including my nose (🍅) and a lot of areas in my body has started to darken- my neck, my tummy, belly button area, underarms, and even some parts of my face…

I always tell @marcoalcaraz that I’m so ugly and he would gently remind me that I’m pregnant and assures me how beautiful I am and that he loves me no matter what… and I’m thankful for a loving husband.. but we can’t always depend on someone to tell us we are beautiful and we are loved…

There will come a time for all of us when we will feel ugly even we’re really not. Sad for no reason at all. Worthless, unappreciated… And this is not just for us ‘pregnant women’, anyone of us can go through these kind of emotions and we must never forget, that our worth is not based on how we look, our status, what we have in our life, how much money we have in the bank… but in how God sees us- as His precious children. Worth saving. Worth dying for.

When nobody seems to care or when no one is around to tell you – always remember this:

Jesus loves you my friend and you are beautiful in His eyes.