Beautiful in His eyes

George 😍

“I pray that you will always know that you are beautiful because you are God’s wonderful creation, that you are loved and your family and your ninongs and ninangs will always be here for you.”

This photo was taken during ‘George’s‘ (Krystal Dannela’s) 1st birthday and dedication and I remember telling the photographer to make sure I don’t look fat in the photo 🙊 (He said he wasn’t a magician, but I think he did a pretty good job)

You see, i have been feeling really ugly recently. At 31 weeks I have already gained almost 30lbs, I’ve gotten pretty big in a lot of areas- including my nose (🍅) and a lot of areas in my body has started to darken- my neck, my tummy, belly button area, underarms, and even some parts of my face…

I always tell @marcoalcaraz that I’m so ugly and he would gently remind me that I’m pregnant and assures me how beautiful I am and that he loves me no matter what… and I’m thankful for a loving husband.. but we can’t always depend on someone to tell us we are beautiful and we are loved…

There will come a time for all of us when we will feel ugly even we’re really not. Sad for no reason at all. Worthless, unappreciated… And this is not just for us ‘pregnant women’, anyone of us can go through these kind of emotions and we must never forget, that our worth is not based on how we look, our status, what we have in our life, how much money we have in the bank… but in how God sees us- as His precious children. Worth saving. Worth dying for.

When nobody seems to care or when no one is around to tell you – always remember this:

Jesus loves you my friend and you are beautiful in His eyes.

‘Tobias’- God is good!

I woke up from a dream that we were having another baby boy… It was 330am on January 31, 2018. I went to the bathroom, grabbed a home pregnancy test, peed on it and then took a shower. As I was drying off, I glanced at the stick and saw two red lines.

I cried.

I cried not because I didn’t want it but because I wasn’t expecting it. If you have been regularly reading my blog and instagram posts, you might remember that we have always wanted another baby since Noah turned 3 years old and have always expected each month for a positive home pregnancy test result, but it never came. (Read previous post about pregnancy Jesus Forgot Us? )

And so we trusted God that He knows what He is doing and that His timing is always perfect. -but it did not feel like very good timing when we got the positive home pregnancy test and then two weeks later at the doctor’s, when she confirmed that there was a sac but no little embryo yet, up to the point when we found out another two weeks later that yes, a baby is growing inside of me!

While the good news was very much welcomed, it was unplanned and we felt came at the wrong time as I was doing 2 regular shows that just started… but who are we to question God’s plan?

What a wonderful opportunity to learn to trust God that He is always right, that His timing is always perfect and that He will provide and strengthen us through this wonderful miracle. What a wonderful gift God is allowing us to have and experience. And we know whatever happens, God is in control and this God who is in control is a good good God, a good Father, who knows what we need and what is best for us.

Our new baby boy, Lord willing is due to arrive this September and we are naming him Tobias Nolan. Nolan means ‘Champion‘ and Tobias means ‘God is good‘ because He is!

It is our prayer that God will keep Tobias in His presence all the days of his life and that he will be a Champion, victoriously conquering all things that will come his way with God who will surely strengthen him. That his life will always declare the goodness of God and bring Him glory in everything he will do and say.

Are you going through something now that feels as if God has forgotten you and has not taken your situation into consideration? Instead of questioning, seek Him through His Word, trust that He loves you and knows what is best for you, take encouragement in these promises:

“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a bright future…” Jeremiah 29:11

“Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you, He will never leave you or forsake you.” Deutronomy 31:6

“Cast all your concerns on Him for He cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:7

When you feel forgotten or forsaken, lift your eyes, hands and heart to God and our good God promised that those who truly seek Him, will find Him.

What we tell Ourselves Vs. What Jesus Says

We tell ourselves to indulge,

Jesus tells us to deny ourselves and follow Him.(Luke 9:23)
We tell ourselves to take the easy path,

Jesus tells us to take the difficult path toward Him. (Matthew 7:14)
We tell ourselves to get all the pleasure we can out of this life,

Jesus tells us to lose our life to find Him instead (Matthew 16:25)
We tell ourselves this life is all there is,

Jesus tells us this life is just a blink of an eye and then eternity. (Luke 12:20)
Jesus tells us- ALL OF US- to “Repent and Believe the Gospel” (Mark 1:15)

To turn from sin and trust in Him

To believe that He is the Son of God who came into the world, lived a perfectly sinless life, died on the cross to absorb the terrible punishment due to sinners like you and me for our rebellion against God, and rose from the grave, defeating death, sin and hell.

“Repent and Believe” He says- to All of us.


Straight, Gay, Bi, Married, Single… ALL OF US.
No matter what’s in the way.

No matter what we have to give up.