Sungka

When I had children, it wasn’t just my body that changed, my whole life did. Most of the time I am exhausted, I am tired, sometimes I cry (parang ngayon, parang tanga, umiiyak habang nagtatype) there are times when I feel like I can’t do it anymore… I look in the mirror and I see messy hair, walang ligo, my tummy covered in stretchmarks so deep you can play ‘sungka’, skin so loose, you can probably make a bag out of it, my breasts- well you my fellow moms know what these two looks like now- and then I look at my sons and they look back, one smiles back and the older one tells me ‘your tummy is so squishy mom, i love it… and even though I feel insecure about my body, I am not going to complain.

Kung ang kapalit naman ng lahat ng sakripisyong ito eh ang mga ngiti ng mga anak ko, okay na okay na ako. I will be grateful to God everyday for the gifts He has entrusted to me.

To mommies, nanays, mamas reading this- it may be hard right now, but it’s all worth it and know that soon, our babies will grow up and we will miss their littleness, their hypernessness and the noises and messes they make and our bodies will remind us that we once carried them and nurtured them.

You are Strong, You are Amazing, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. You may feel unappreciated but God sees you, knows you and what you’re going through and He loves you. Smile na, He’s got us…Tara Sungka tayo!

‘Tobias’- God is good!

I woke up from a dream that we were having another baby boy… It was 330am on January 31, 2018. I went to the bathroom, grabbed a home pregnancy test, peed on it and then took a shower. As I was drying off, I glanced at the stick and saw two red lines.

I cried.

I cried not because I didn’t want it but because I wasn’t expecting it. If you have been regularly reading my blog and instagram posts, you might remember that we have always wanted another baby since Noah turned 3 years old and have always expected each month for a positive home pregnancy test result, but it never came. (Read previous post about pregnancy Jesus Forgot Us? )

And so we trusted God that He knows what He is doing and that His timing is always perfect. -but it did not feel like very good timing when we got the positive home pregnancy test and then two weeks later at the doctor’s, when she confirmed that there was a sac but no little embryo yet, up to the point when we found out another two weeks later that yes, a baby is growing inside of me!

While the good news was very much welcomed, it was unplanned and we felt came at the wrong time as I was doing 2 regular shows that just started… but who are we to question God’s plan?

What a wonderful opportunity to learn to trust God that He is always right, that His timing is always perfect and that He will provide and strengthen us through this wonderful miracle. What a wonderful gift God is allowing us to have and experience. And we know whatever happens, God is in control and this God who is in control is a good good God, a good Father, who knows what we need and what is best for us.

Our new baby boy, Lord willing is due to arrive this September and we are naming him Tobias Nolan. Nolan means ‘Champion‘ and Tobias means ‘God is good‘ because He is!

It is our prayer that God will keep Tobias in His presence all the days of his life and that he will be a Champion, victoriously conquering all things that will come his way with God who will surely strengthen him. That his life will always declare the goodness of God and bring Him glory in everything he will do and say.

Are you going through something now that feels as if God has forgotten you and has not taken your situation into consideration? Instead of questioning, seek Him through His Word, trust that He loves you and knows what is best for you, take encouragement in these promises:

“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a bright future…” Jeremiah 29:11

“Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you, He will never leave you or forsake you.” Deutronomy 31:6

“Cast all your concerns on Him for He cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:7

When you feel forgotten or forsaken, lift your eyes, hands and heart to God and our good God promised that those who truly seek Him, will find Him.

Overcoming Hormones

If you notice, the last post I posted on this blog except for the one yesterday about the Breastpump Giveaway was last December! December!

And as I write this, all I want to do is go back to bed, lie down in front of the TV and do nothing! I feel so lazy, so exhausted even though I just woke up. And I’ve been feeling like this since I was 5 weeks pregnant. So I should just go back to bed right? I have an excuse, afterall I’m pregnant! My body is making a baby inside and that should be enough reason for me to be lazy and give in to that laziness, right?…

But you see ever since I found out I was pregnant again, I have also been more irritable, easily annoyed at Marco, at Noah and anybody I feel like being annoyed at. And most times for no reason at all! There were also moments when I simply feel sad.

Galatians 5: 22-23 says that the fruit of the Spirit is LOVE, JOY, Peace, PATIENCE, KINDNESS, GOODNESS, faithfulnes, GENTLENESS and SELF-CONTROL.

So does being pregnant mean I lose the fruit the Holy Spirit gives? Can I really keep on using ‘it’s the hormones‘ excuse for my laziness, moodiness and kaartehan?

I decided it stops now. (O Lord help me!)

When you’re pregnant, hormones go crazy, it seems impossible to overcome it, but I know my God is greater and more powerful than any hormonal changes my body is going through and as Philippians 4:13 says, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”

Being lazy included me neglecting to spend time with my creator. My prayer time became rushed and there were days when I don’t even read the Bible at all- and I guess this answers why I’m so easily annoyed and why I feel sad- it’s because I have been disconnected to my God. He is my joy afterall and my soul longs for Him. So when I don’t spend time with Him, I lose that joy and that causes me to do and feel all sorts of crazy.

If you have been feeling the same way I have, it’s time to get on our knees and PRAY! Pray that God keeps us and not cast us away from His presence. Pray that God will strengthen us and give us the desire to know Him more by reading His Word.

The Bible says that we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us- even us busy mamas and pregnant mamas. We don’t stop being warriors of God just because we are mothers. The battle goes on and God’s grace will always be sufficient for us to do what God has called us to do.

“We can overcome hormones and anything else that tries to get us away from God through Him who is our strength”

More than ever, we as mothers need to be rooted in God’s Word and make God our priority. Not our children- but God. Because only by doing that can we hope to be the best moms we can be for our kids.

If you have beem feeling the same way, let me know and let us encourage one another by praying for each other. Leave your thoughts and name on the comments section and I would love to pray for you.

No days off.

What’s your daily schedule like?

As mommies, our list of things to do are endless… we are always the first one to wake up- to prepare breakfast, baons, uniforms, etc and we are usually always the last one to settle down in bed. There’s kids to take care of, feed, bathe, put to bed, cuddle, there’s the pile of laundry, the dogs to feed and groom, a house to clean, meals to cook, groceries to do, a husband to take care of and so on and if you’re also working mom like me, I’m sure that you are most likely exhausted at the end of the day. And by weekend, you feel like screaming and just want to run away… But you don’t because you’re a mother and we don’t give up on our kids, on our families and we go on no matter how we feel. But even mommies need time off, at least for a few hours or a even just a few minutes.

But is that really possible? When we don’t even seem to have time to comb our hair? Let me share with you how I relax and find a few precious mommy time to myself.

There’s really no secret to finding time, it’s all about making time and learning to organize and prioritize what is important.

  • Make a to do list. Be organize. Get your phones out and write down all the things that you need to do for the day. Order what needs to be done first. When you have a list, you can be more focused and you can be sure not to forget anything.
  • Seek God first. This is the top of the list. To seek God first in everything… and I assure you, you’ll be ready for whatever the day may bring. (Matthew 6:33) No matter what’s in your ‘To Do List’ or how many there are, always always spend time with God first, a few minutes to talk to Him or meditate in His Word will go a long way.
  • Teach your kids the importance of respecting time and space. We sometimes underestimate our children, but it may surprise you that they understand what you need and what you want them to do when you talk to them seriously and clearly. Tell them that you need a few minutes to yourself and give them something to do while you have your ‘mommy time’. If you are taking care of an infant, wait while they’re asleep to have your precious time to yourself. If you have toddlers, secure them in a safe playpen or room while you find time to relax.
  • Family Support. If your husband is with you, ask them to take care of the household for a few minutes. If you have a yaya or a relative with you, ask them to spare a few minutes of their time for you

There’s always a way, there’s always time, you just need to make room for it.

When I finally ‘make’ the time, this is what I do, I go to a quiet room in my house, it’s usually the guest bedroom, but sometimes to hide from Noah, ‘my secret place’ can be the closet, the bathroom, the balcony, even the car… I would ask God to take my mind off things that are not important, to take my worries and fears away and allow me to just spend time with Him. This is how I relax, I light up a lamp (my Lampe Berger) to help me feel more relaxed, I read God’s word or just listen to Worship Music and just worship Him through songs or listen to sermons and preachings in podcasts.

I listen to Worship Songs and Just ask GOd to be glorified in all that I do. TO worship Him every minute of every day.

Lampe Berger cleans and purifies the air around my home while providing long lasting and relaxing fragrance. Today I used Summer Rain which is quickly becoming a favorite, because my room just smells so fresh and clean.

To know more about Lampe Berger, please read my previous post about it. Click Here.

And just 20 minutes in my ‘mommy time’, as I covered my lamp… I hear a knock…

Oh My Noah! Well cuddle time is also one way to relax!

Whatever it is you decide to do with your mommy time, make sure you do it because you have to, remember a happy, relax mom makes a happy home. Mommies may not have any days off but we can definitely have some mommy time every day.

How do you make time for yourself? And what do you do to relax? Please share them with me and my readers in the comments section! Thank you!

Why so downcast O my soul?

We all have moments when we cannot seem to explain why we are so sad, why we feel so down, so low- that we end up crying! And the worst part is, we don’t even know why we’re crying!
I seem to be getting a lot of those moments recently. I believe I am being attacked spiritually, past sins creep up, guilt comes knocking, feeling of worthlessness, of hopelessness… so what do I when I get attacked?

What should we do when we feel down?


Psalm 42:5 Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.

I turn to God’s Word and I put my hope in Him, in His Promises. I remind myself of what the Bible says and not focus on how I feel. I think of all the things that I don’t deserve, that God has blessed me with- my husband, my noah, my family, this day that I am alive and well! I remember all the times God picked me up and rescued me and how He helped me overcome all the challenges.
Oh I will put my hope in the One True God! The God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob. In Jesus, the lover of my soul and I remind myself that nothing can ever separate me from the love of God and that I am more than a conqueror!

When you fill your mind with God’s Word, His promises and assurance of His Grace, there won’t be room for the enemy’s lies.

“What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written: “For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.” No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” -Romans 8:31-39