Sungka

When I had children, it wasn’t just my body that changed, my whole life did. Most of the time I am exhausted, I am tired, sometimes I cry (parang ngayon, parang tanga, umiiyak habang nagtatype) there are times when I feel like I can’t do it anymore… I look in the mirror and I see messy hair, walang ligo, my tummy covered in stretchmarks so deep you can play ‘sungka’, skin so loose, you can probably make a bag out of it, my breasts- well you my fellow moms know what these two looks like now- and then I look at my sons and they look back, one smiles back and the older one tells me ‘your tummy is so squishy mom, i love it… and even though I feel insecure about my body, I am not going to complain.

Kung ang kapalit naman ng lahat ng sakripisyong ito eh ang mga ngiti ng mga anak ko, okay na okay na ako. I will be grateful to God everyday for the gifts He has entrusted to me.

To mommies, nanays, mamas reading this- it may be hard right now, but it’s all worth it and know that soon, our babies will grow up and we will miss their littleness, their hypernessness and the noises and messes they make and our bodies will remind us that we once carried them and nurtured them.

You are Strong, You are Amazing, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. You may feel unappreciated but God sees you, knows you and what you’re going through and He loves you. Smile na, He’s got us…Tara Sungka tayo!

‘Tobias’- God is good!

I woke up from a dream that we were having another baby boy… It was 330am on January 31, 2018. I went to the bathroom, grabbed a home pregnancy test, peed on it and then took a shower. As I was drying off, I glanced at the stick and saw two red lines.

I cried.

I cried not because I didn’t want it but because I wasn’t expecting it. If you have been regularly reading my blog and instagram posts, you might remember that we have always wanted another baby since Noah turned 3 years old and have always expected each month for a positive home pregnancy test result, but it never came. (Read previous post about pregnancy Jesus Forgot Us? )

And so we trusted God that He knows what He is doing and that His timing is always perfect. -but it did not feel like very good timing when we got the positive home pregnancy test and then two weeks later at the doctor’s, when she confirmed that there was a sac but no little embryo yet, up to the point when we found out another two weeks later that yes, a baby is growing inside of me!

While the good news was very much welcomed, it was unplanned and we felt came at the wrong time as I was doing 2 regular shows that just started… but who are we to question God’s plan?

What a wonderful opportunity to learn to trust God that He is always right, that His timing is always perfect and that He will provide and strengthen us through this wonderful miracle. What a wonderful gift God is allowing us to have and experience. And we know whatever happens, God is in control and this God who is in control is a good good God, a good Father, who knows what we need and what is best for us.

Our new baby boy, Lord willing is due to arrive this September and we are naming him Tobias Nolan. Nolan means ‘Champion‘ and Tobias means ‘God is good‘ because He is!

It is our prayer that God will keep Tobias in His presence all the days of his life and that he will be a Champion, victoriously conquering all things that will come his way with God who will surely strengthen him. That his life will always declare the goodness of God and bring Him glory in everything he will do and say.

Are you going through something now that feels as if God has forgotten you and has not taken your situation into consideration? Instead of questioning, seek Him through His Word, trust that He loves you and knows what is best for you, take encouragement in these promises:

“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a bright future…” Jeremiah 29:11

“Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you, He will never leave you or forsake you.” Deutronomy 31:6

“Cast all your concerns on Him for He cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:7

When you feel forgotten or forsaken, lift your eyes, hands and heart to God and our good God promised that those who truly seek Him, will find Him.

Trick or Treat? Yes or No?

Should Christians participate in or celebrate Halloween?
(I first posted this 2 years ago, but the message is still true for me)


Noah’s school informed us that this week is Halloween Celebration week and their lessons will include teaching the children all about Halloween and there will be a party on Friday where the kids will have to dress up and do trick or treats. I even bought chocolates earlier to bring to school and asked Noah what he wanted to dress up in, but he started to cry and said he didn’t want to (I feel that this is one way of God telling me something) Before God took the veil off my eyes, no alarm bells rang off and I did not see anything wrong with Halloween. But now I’m not so sure, after all Halloween celebrates ghosts, witches, etc.

Now you might say ‘But what harm could it do’ and that I’m being a killjoy and taking this too seriously.. But I have to take this seriously! After all Jesus took me seriously when He died and suffered for me, for us! So in everything I do, I want to please Him and give Him glory.

For now, I will continue to study God’s Word and find out God’s say in all this. The plan for now- if I will allow Noah to wear a costume, I won’t dress him up in anything that would glorify the devil. I’ll dress up him up in something good. If Noah doesn’t want to- I simply won’t force him. I will also talk to Noah’s teacher and find out what lessons they will be teaching the kids and tell her about Noah’s fears. When I give out treats, i’ll stick little Bible verses on them and use the occasion to share the Love of God to the kids and their parents.

Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. -Romans 12:2 NIV

To all my Christian brothers and sisters, especially Christian parents, what is your stand on this? If you could provide scriptures that would be great!

Here are some of the comments I got from friends when I first posted it. Let me know what you think.

SOS Children

SOS Children’s Villages Philippines celebrates its 50th Anniversary by promoting Filipino artistry and creativity.

This October, open your hearts as SOS Children’s Villages Philippines celebrates its 50 years in service with a fundraising event that will surely be fun, artistic, and for a good cause. “Art Exhibit for A Cause” will happen on October 24 to 29 at Upper Ground Floor, Home Zone, Alabang Town Center, Muntinlupa City. This is to present the programs & initiatives of SOS Children’s Villages Philippines and increase public awareness about the reality of neglected, abandoned and abused Filipino children. Artworks from local artists will be exhibited to generate funds for the benefit of SOS children. In every piece sold, we can provide family and home to children who have lost parental care.

Multi-awarded artists like Rene Robles, an internationally exhibited artist with over 70 solo exhibitions in Europe, USA and Asia, and Aris Bagtas, a visual artist and sculptor genius of his generation, will join us together with other artists that you don’t want to miss.

To add more fun, celebrities such as Teddy Corpuz, Maxene Magalona, Sharlene San Pedro, Trina Legaspi, Myrtle Sarrosa, and Sarah Carlos will support the event by donating pre-loved items that are going to be sold at the exhibit!

Items will be available for viewing at our website www.sosphilippines.org and on our Facebook account www.facebook.com/SOSCVPH/ on October 16, 2017.

You can purchase the items through our social media accounts or call us at (02) 867 7800 (Landline), 0917 679 0024 (Globe), and 09992299749 (Smart).

The event will start at 2 in the afternoon on October 24, 2017. Everyone is invited!

Come and let’s see the exceptional talent of Filipino painters and help the children in need.

For more information, contact Ms. Ellaine Grace C. Grisola, the Creative Services and Communications Assistant of SOS Children’s Villages – National Office at 867-7800 (Landline) or at 09264554149 (Globe).

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No days off.

What’s your daily schedule like?

As mommies, our list of things to do are endless… we are always the first one to wake up- to prepare breakfast, baons, uniforms, etc and we are usually always the last one to settle down in bed. There’s kids to take care of, feed, bathe, put to bed, cuddle, there’s the pile of laundry, the dogs to feed and groom, a house to clean, meals to cook, groceries to do, a husband to take care of and so on and if you’re also working mom like me, I’m sure that you are most likely exhausted at the end of the day. And by weekend, you feel like screaming and just want to run away… But you don’t because you’re a mother and we don’t give up on our kids, on our families and we go on no matter how we feel. But even mommies need time off, at least for a few hours or a even just a few minutes.

But is that really possible? When we don’t even seem to have time to comb our hair? Let me share with you how I relax and find a few precious mommy time to myself.

There’s really no secret to finding time, it’s all about making time and learning to organize and prioritize what is important.

  • Make a to do list. Be organize. Get your phones out and write down all the things that you need to do for the day. Order what needs to be done first. When you have a list, you can be more focused and you can be sure not to forget anything.
  • Seek God first. This is the top of the list. To seek God first in everything… and I assure you, you’ll be ready for whatever the day may bring. (Matthew 6:33) No matter what’s in your ‘To Do List’ or how many there are, always always spend time with God first, a few minutes to talk to Him or meditate in His Word will go a long way.
  • Teach your kids the importance of respecting time and space. We sometimes underestimate our children, but it may surprise you that they understand what you need and what you want them to do when you talk to them seriously and clearly. Tell them that you need a few minutes to yourself and give them something to do while you have your ‘mommy time’. If you are taking care of an infant, wait while they’re asleep to have your precious time to yourself. If you have toddlers, secure them in a safe playpen or room while you find time to relax.
  • Family Support. If your husband is with you, ask them to take care of the household for a few minutes. If you have a yaya or a relative with you, ask them to spare a few minutes of their time for you

There’s always a way, there’s always time, you just need to make room for it.

When I finally ‘make’ the time, this is what I do, I go to a quiet room in my house, it’s usually the guest bedroom, but sometimes to hide from Noah, ‘my secret place’ can be the closet, the bathroom, the balcony, even the car… I would ask God to take my mind off things that are not important, to take my worries and fears away and allow me to just spend time with Him. This is how I relax, I light up a lamp (my Lampe Berger) to help me feel more relaxed, I read God’s word or just listen to Worship Music and just worship Him through songs or listen to sermons and preachings in podcasts.

I listen to Worship Songs and Just ask GOd to be glorified in all that I do. TO worship Him every minute of every day.

Lampe Berger cleans and purifies the air around my home while providing long lasting and relaxing fragrance. Today I used Summer Rain which is quickly becoming a favorite, because my room just smells so fresh and clean.

To know more about Lampe Berger, please read my previous post about it. Click Here.

And just 20 minutes in my ‘mommy time’, as I covered my lamp… I hear a knock…

Oh My Noah! Well cuddle time is also one way to relax!

Whatever it is you decide to do with your mommy time, make sure you do it because you have to, remember a happy, relax mom makes a happy home. Mommies may not have any days off but we can definitely have some mommy time every day.

How do you make time for yourself? And what do you do to relax? Please share them with me and my readers in the comments section! Thank you!

Not Fairy Tales

Have you ever heard the story of Noah’s Ark? Joseph the Dreamer? David and Goliath? Samson and Delilah? Gideon? Esther? Ruth? Daniel and the Lions? And Noah’s current favorite: Jonah and the Big Fish.

Oh I love Bible stories, and unlike Cinderella or other fairy tales, these stories actually happened!

Can you imagine the Red Sea Parting? Or Jonah inside the Big Fish for 3 days? Seems Impossible right? But you see with God nothing is impossible.

Earlier at church, our pastor shared how in all of these stories, God’s ways always seems impossible and difficult to understand. For example, the story of Gideon (Judges 6) you have to read it! (More exciting than any action film around!) Gideon was the least in the weakest clan of Israel, yet God chose him to save Israel from the Midianites. Fast forward, Gideon set off with 32,000 men but God told him to bring only 300 men to battle against Thousands of men (thick as locust) which means too many to count! Imagine 300 against whattt??? And yet God delivered the Midianites, Amalekites and the rest of the other armies into Israel’s hands through the weak Gideon and his 300 men! Amazing right?

In human’s understanding, that would have seemed impossible. There seems to be a better plan and yet God shows us through these stories that His plan even if it seems impossible is still better than Man’s plan. And He does it so that we can see that it is only through Him that we can conquer anything and not through our own strength or abilities.

So whatever you are going through now, however difficult remember trust in God. Follow His ways and His plans, they seem hard but trust that it is the best and you will come out victorious if you do it God’s Way.

God does whatever He pleases. But trust that whatever He does will be good because He is a Good God!

Hallelujah!

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways ,” declares the Lord. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts. Isaiah 55:8-9

Trust in Him today. Let Him come to your rescue and surrender all your plans. Repent. Believe and allow God to transform your life today.

Originally Posted October 2015

‘Til I met You… God.’


Thanks to ‘the Love Team’ for bringing to life Mira’s dream party! Hahahha and thanks to The Til I Met You team for allowing us to guest and be a part of this wonderful show!
If you saw this week’s episodes of TIMY, you know The story of Mira’s parents (me and bernard), how before mira was born, we had 3 miscarriages.. Through their story, I know God was speaking to me too…
We always get asked “kelan nyo susundan si noah?”, “4 years old na si noah, kailangan na ng kapatid”. And we would just smile and say, “Di pa kami ready” or “Soon” but recently we have been aswering people with “Kung kelan ibibigay ni Lord”.

“Kung kelan ibibigay ni Lord”

– is my acceptance of God’s will over my life.

It has always been my dream to have a big family. Lots and lots of children! 12 to be exact 🙊 Noah just turned 4 and people seem right in saying that ‘It is about time to have another one’– but it’s not that we’re not trying -but we’re also not really trying (magulo ba?) in other words- We are just waiting for it to happen. 

When God wills it.

And God knows how many times I expected to be pregnant and yet the tests always come out negative. And for those who have been trying and hoping ang praying- you know how truly disappointing and heartbreaking it is to feel that you are- only to see 1 red line.

“Love the Lord your God will all your heart, with all your soul and with all your mind- this is the first and greatest commandent.” Matthew 22:37-38
God reminded me where my heart should be set upon with this verse. God commands us to love Him first before anything else. To set our eyes on Him. On Jesus. To think eternally and not earthly. And while there is nothing wrong with desiring to have a child- we must desire God more thank anything first of all. To find our satisfcation in Him alone.
I still pray for a brother or a sister for noah (or both) 🙊 but I’m also asking God to take away my desire if it is no longer His will for us to have more. And I tell Him I accept His will over my life and will choose to put my trust in Him no matter what. And we will always grateful to Him for Noah. For blessing is with such a beautiful gift that we don’t deserve. Noah was already a bonus. So many bonuses na nga! And yet God even gave His Son Jesus for us so we can be reconciled to Him. (Hallelujah!)

How can we ask for more?

For those who have been praying for something and think that God has been silent or unhearing. Remember these verses and ask God for peace and the strength to trust Him in everything! 

Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a bright future.

Matthew 6:33 “Seek First the Kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you.”


‘Til I met God, all my desires were selfish, now I seek to please Him in all I do. For me, to live is Christ and to die is gain!